I’m rebelling! I want to scream so loud! I’m upset!
Summer is gone. It just flew away almost undetected. It flew by so swiftly and today I realized that I am putting all my summer clothes away not even had a chance to wear them: dresses, sandals, t-shirts …. I put everything away until next summer not even wearing them once. Sneakers are my best friends this year …. Nothing wrong about it, I love them, and they are very comfortable. But… I like to dress up. I like to go to work, I like chat with people, I like to feel live around me. Right now I sense that life just passes me by, and I am not on this adventure train.
This pandemic ruined all my plans. I’ve been in the quarantine since March and will stay home until February, maybe more… Who knows… I feel frustrated!
I’m rebelling because I want my life back, which will never happen. Life is already different now it will change and alter our lifestyle even more and affect all of us. Unfortunately, it will never be the same as before. We have to learn new rules and new ways to live. Life is divided into “before pandemic and after.” “After pandemic” perhaps will be a new chapter in my life, but I will think about it later, because now….
The drama began… I’m rebelling. I disagree. I’m crying and putting my summer clothes away… I know most of you will say “Silly Angela! Look around! The world just turned upside down: coronavirus, quarantine, protests, frustrations, anger, etc. and you are whining about your dresses …. You will wear them next summer. Not a big deal! Hold yourself! Shame on you!” Absolutely agreed! It is a shame… But… but sometimes it is impossible to hold yourself. It is hard to be strong all the time. Even strong women can turn to capricious girl. I just waited when I stay at home myself and voila: laying on the floor in a dramatic pose… elbows overhead… bitter tears run down my cheeks… puffy eyes… red nose… mascara all over the face. Feel so sorry for myself…poor me… etc. I look in the mirror …. serious, ugly and funny… The drama is finished. Next I eat ice cream with Baileys and feel good and happy again.
Sorry for my hysterical post. We all have a moment. I am still rebelling, but I feel better now.
It was a good emotional relief and a silly dress was just a childish excuse to cry. In fact, I have no reason to cry or be terribly upset. I am doing well, and I am grateful for everything I have in my life, even for the quarantine because it may be a good kick for me to do something else.
We often waste our lives on trifles and petty nonsense, missing the main points.
I think it is most important for all of us to be together, support each other and have another day of life! We need to find a way to live with gratitude and pleasure, even when it looks impossible. This is what is important. Life is an extraordinary gift and we must appreciate it!
Stay safe, healthy and merely enjoy your life!